there's time when i always said to people that whatever happen to you... whether good or bad must be thankful... well then they always told me... is always easy to said than done... but during that time i didnt really experience anything super extreme tat will make me completely down..... at least not till last week...

wat happen... well.... it happen on thursday morning at 9am... i was going to my cousin house to get my expenses claim and i thought it will be just for awhile.... so i reached his house bout 9am and goin to his house and wait for him lo.... then suddenly i heard banging sound outside his house... quite loud and i have a very bad feeling already.. stand up and i saw 1 malays was breaking my car window while another on the bike.... i immediately rush out and yell at them but do not avail.. coz the door is closed and gate is auto locked. so i didnt manage to get out on time... i immediately yell for my cousin, open the gate and rush out to my car to chase that 2 bastards.... that time while chasing them i was so mad... so much so that i have the urged to kill them.... so looking for them and drive like mad ppl... u guys might be wondering why am i so mad... well... it happen that they took away my laptop, and 2 of my handphones coz all this is in my laptop bag... the worse is my software and all my documents.... it was my hard work of 4 years work and i didnt backup my data.... the last backup in on 31/3. so all the patches that i've done go down to drained... is like i lost everyting at that split second and cant really make up my mind on why it is happen to me... during the 1 hour of searching and drivin around that place... i started to ask God why is it happen to me... why He want to play such big trick on me... what He want from me.... how am i going to finish all the patches again and what should i do....

then suddenly i remember a story in the bible (i think is in the old testament)... about a guy who lost everyting in the fire... but he still be thankful... i also remember another story told by pastor (dunno who already).. about a guy who lost everything... completly everyting in the fire also but he told his people that it might burned away all his property but it did not burn away his faith.. so he started work the next day to build back his factory.....

also i thought of a bible verse saying that God will not put any obstacles that we cant overcome.... i donno why so many bible verse keep popping out on my head but i find comfort from there.... i think bout it and ask God if it is His will tat my main source of income to be gone just like tis, then i will obey and will be thankful... how to do it... well i am thankful because they break my car but only my laptop is stolen... my car still there and actually there's many just by the side of laptop.. the tournament money... and it was not stolen.. also i saw how all my family member really care for me... my cousin bro immediately drive out to help me search for that 2 bastards and let go all his work... help to track them.. at one point i actually found 2 very identical to that 2 who stole my laptop.. i immediately go back tell him and he immediately went together wit and interogate them... really thankful to have such a good cousin who help me out when i'm in trouble..my aunty.. uncle and parents, sisters.. all very concern on me... but the main think that i really want to be thankful is to God for letting me learned to how to be thankful in every circumstances... i able to let it go and although sad and angry but still able to let it go.... wat by gone by gone already.. no where we could turn back time... even if we are sad still we cannot get back what we lost.. so be thankful always and move on... becoz the longer we drag the longer the problem will be.....

so i went to report police and report that 2 identical malays to the police... procedure is very long and talk to sarjan azalan... very friendly sarjan and also teach him how to change the lowercase to uppercase.. hehe... they actually using office 2007 ar.. high tech leh. hehe....

after report police.. took picture.... took my car to repair.... go get my aunty handphone.. reactivate my tel no and went to office to settle some things... after that go back home and bathed... packed my stuff and drive back to Klang.. initially my plan is to go to my cousin house, get the cheq, then go office and directly go back Klang but mana tau change of plan... but 1 tink i realised is if u able to let it go... the rest will be a lot easier.. although driving back to klang about 4 hrs journey still i didnt think much about my laptop.. i juz think how am i goin to solve the problems.. call to buy new laptop and thinking what phone model to buy.. hehe... yea.. i able to let it go despite the fact that i lost all my works in split second....

a lot of ppl ask me why am i so steady.... well i juz say... what gone, gone. even if u sad still cannot get it back.. so why dont take the facts and try to think what should i do better than sitting there and be sad.... went back to klang on thursday, friday morning went to meet my clients without laptop.. they ask me why and i jus joked with them sayin i already donated my laptop and handphone. hehe..

after that went back klang and took my family to awana hotel, genting and juz enjoy myself kow kow... although i downgraded from p1i to t630 and p990i to motorola razor but luckily still got phone..... also from this lesson i learned that a lot of ppl cares for me and that i'm really touched and thankful.

so now i got new laptop and better than the old 1 but still will missed the old 1 coz old 1 got fingerprint recognition and this new 1 dont have.. hehe... but the new 1 specs is a lot betterla... somemore my old laptop battery KO liao for few years already... so new laptop got battery and i can go to places without the need to bring along my adapter. heheh. phone wise will wait until october coz sony ericsson is coming out with a new model........ X1... whahaah.... so losing a hp is not so bad afterall.. at least now i can buy newer model.. hehehe...

ironic things is few months ago my trainees lost my fujitsu laptop also window got smashed and that time i lectured them on the things like u mus put laptop at the back, cannot put like tis and bla bla.... so now God want me to learn the same lesson coz i know how lectured ppl but ownself didnt do it.. hahaa.... so lesson learned and is a very pricey lesson though......

eaglexxx signin off...VV...

growing up is always part of our life.. someting tat cannot be changed and no way to reverse.... growing up also mean tat a lot of tings need to tink and action need to make... every action taken, every move make will change a lot of tings... how u look at the perspective of life is also determine how u goin to walk the walk and talk the talk...

facing obstacles and difficulty is part of growing up as well as failure and stumble on someting.. how u overcome it will lead u to the path u goin to make for the rest of ur life.. 1 decision can make u c everyting completly differently. no matter how much u try to anticipate, sometime tings juz aren't tat way... wat u expect is not always wat u got.

bitter sweet of growing up is someting tat everyone hav to go through it in order to gain experience and learn to stand up when fall down. if a person fail to do so, fail to accept the truth about life, then he will never never ever able to learn how to grow up. growing up mean u need to sacrifice tings.. tings tat u wouldn't let go but eventually u hav to but the pain u get sometime is unbearable... still is the sacrifice to make.

cross road is always there to make us tink on how we goin to choose our future but a lot of time we tend to depends on our ways.. .instead of His ways. we tend to tink tat we can choose better than Him and we can outsmart Him... but facts is we r noting without Him. we are complete loser without Him. who r we if not Him who saved us.... who r we if not Him to guide us. decision is someting tat everyone is afraid of.... wat if u make a wrong decision, what if the decision u make will let u regret for the rest of ur life... wat if u r not up to the challenge... wat if u fail...............................

eaglexxx signin off...VV...